well summer is upon us... does everyone start to feel the pressure?
so sorry that i haven't been on in so long.
my mother passed away march 1st. it is fucked.
i feel like all my energy has left, gone with her.
i need some motivation.
im 145ish, up and down.
i can't believe that im actually this big.
please, pointers, ideas, inspiration.
much appreciated.

I just deleted my facebook and my myspace. I was sick of it. it's a rat race, i don't need to keep up with the jones' of the world. I feel like i will be more productive now not thinking about who's watching or who i'm watching. it's a new freedom im am very excited to explore.

I have been doing lots of painting lately. trying new and fun things.
life is good.
j